Friday, September 28, 2012

I Learned It By Watching You


“…be imitators of God as dear children.  And walk in love, as Christ also has loved us and given Himself for us, an offering and a sacrifice to God for a sweet-smelling aroma.” 
~Ephesians 5:1-2

As I prepared dinner earlier this week, Ruthie took up her usual place of watching me by standing on a chair at the kitchen counter.  She filled every void with her usual chatter as I inserted an occasional “uh-huh” in an attempt to feign my attentiveness.  Then, after a brief moment of silence, she said,
“So this is what you have to do to be a mom.  Cooking…washing dishes…  I’m learning how to be a mom by watching you.”
Gulp.  She had no idea what sobering words she uttered to my very soul.  All I had done and said in her short five years of life came rushing at me in a sort of end-of-life experience.  She’s watching my every move.  Studying it, even.  Consciously. 
O, Lord.  I pray I am a mom worth watching.  Help me to walk in the light of Your love, imitating You, studying You, so that in watching me, Ruthie sees You.  Please forgive my feigned attentiveness to You and Your ways.  Please cleanse the stench of my selfishness so that my life as a mom might be a sweet-smelling sacrifice to You.  Amen.

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